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     那个奇怪的我一直觉得是江湖骗子的3年前骚扰我到不行一个劲让我去学表演的让我害怕得都不敢一个人回家的"导演"在我都快忘记他时周么又打来了电话，讲他这三年怎么在上海，又怎么辗转到国外，讲他刚和XXX从汶川义演回来，还问我怎么样怎么样，私人的问题不私人的问题他都问还让我去看他北影学生排的话剧，我真是不知道这样的人都是怎么想的，没完没了。

    周么出去玩和琼美女一个房间，她真的太美了，好喜欢～我觉得女孩子还是白白的，乖巧的，低调的好。即使什么都懂了，也要内敛地。什么好像都懂一点，出去跟人贫，其实又不是真懂，跟大姐大似的，还老爱评价别人的女生，就会很让人很讨厌，我可不要变成这样的。

   最近玩得太多了，要收敛一下，我给自己每天定计划，在没有开始考试复习前，一定要做两件事，所有事都排在这两件事情后面！

Yestoday I went to Lama temple again to say my thanks and meanwhile to make an another wish. I was holding a complicatedly up-side-down sentiment when I suddently remembered the time about 4 months ago I made 3 wishes there. How happily I was then and all that was because of SB. But now time passed my first wish has completed and the second one seemed to be ruined.  

I readded his MSN the week before last week and spoke a word to him after 3 months. Again it was me to break the ice. I don't know. Except from heart beat, I think, it is more like the admiration I am holding towards the guy even though he must feel sorry to me because of his selfish, his cool and his evil curiosity! And even though I met someone more cliever and excellent than him. I still feel a little excited to see his MSN land on. 

I confessed that I'v really done something evil from April and I know its so baaad.... I should cut off the connection.

 

Chatting with an old friend on MSN, I got one truth even though other people have already revealed that before and I never confessed... It's about my personality.  I wanna be  low-pitched but oppositely I always want to be the focus subconsciously. I am a contradiction combination.

 

Today I went to the Xinjiang Restaurant again~~~ I like eye contact with the hot and sexy dancing girl.~~ Really nice body and act!!  

 

 

 

With some complicated nervous mood I stepped into this new place~ Hoho, And finanlly it proved that I'v made a correct choice. Actually nobody really got the meaning of my signment on MSN-The long war. Sb asked why I still hold the signment and it's time now to celebrate for the result. In fact the changing is not the end of my willing but only just a part of or to say, just a begining. I get my time back and finally I could do sth for myself now which is much more glamrous . BTW, I like all the things concerned to glamor & passion. I have a figure in my mind about myself in 30. I wanna be that kind of women. So come on~~

 

BTW, I met a person here and I must to say again. It's a small world ~~

 

Sometimes I don't content with such status

Stand by the cross road

I just wanna a wider space

I wanna fly

I wanna make bigger

This is destined an alterative year 

I just wanna run faster and grow stronger

Change it

Strange week, seems I've experienced lots of things and somebody really gave me a shock. I'm getting closer to a totally different world and a bunch of arrogant clever men. 

In Friday I'm a little lost of myself for my career and future, just suddently. How to choose?

1 Reading party organized.

2 Sth to do after the day, including the bathtub and travel~

3 Strive for my target in age 30~

这星期事还挺多

一 放弃一件大事，最后决定放弃的时候还有点小难过～不过没关系，今年去不了，明年去。今年不能去这，我们去别的地er～

二 这星期过于充实了，应接不暇的事情。每天走得很晚，但每天精神都很好，因为心里有动力～这样的生活要结束喽～

三 发现好多让我无比崇拜的人，应证了turbe的话“牛逼的人需要相处一段时间才会觉得他牛逼，装逼的人刚开始相处觉得很牛逼，时间长了才知道是装逼，SB的人一开始就让人觉得很SB；SB可以进化成装逼，装逼也可以退化成SB；装逼和SB的界限是模糊的，但牛逼永远是牛逼。”我见过ZB的，一开始觉得很NB，后来才发现是SB～ 但是原来身边不显不露的很多人，才是有很多真本事的人～ 真NB

四 憋坏了我了，之后要好好激情一下～