注定遇见的人再怎样回避也是徒劳；

该发生的还是发生了；

没有缘分，再怎样互相喜欢，互相关心都还是痛苦；

我会一直记着这四个月以来这样的男人对我的好；

在我最需要帮助的时候，他会在我身边；

这样那样的关心，这样那样的sweet；

以及从来没有遇到过的默契；

我为他认为我给他带来的和其他人完全不同的special感觉 和 初恋一样纯洁的感情 而感动欣慰；

这样好的男人， 可是算了；

依然感激可以预见；

希望像之前所说的那样以后依然可以对对方很真诚，彼此很欣赏，互助友爱。不说不做刻意伤害对方的话或事。这样就不会伤害很大，做不了爱人就做红/蓝颜知己吧。永远不要恨对方；

就这样吧。

 

 

 

1 Seen some famous people recently, Mr Zheng, Samaranch, Zhenliang He. wanna get power from those capable man.

2 Played Golf twice in one week.

3 Do I become a little snobbish?

I’m more likely to be angry nowadays for those trivial details, like, why I can’t understand all the information stated in the magazine I read when I take subway in the morning? Why I can't remember the words or some terms I recited yesterday? Why I can’t be more considerate for my each planning? Why I can’t increase my speed when reading a book? Why I don’t have the shape or some other out looking things I endeavor to have? Why I can’t be more clearly and perspicacious?

 

Angle and devil weave in and out in my mind showing discriminating opinions. Angle alarmed me by some traditional moral and devil utilizes my exposed curiosity to do evil things.

 

Sometimes I thinks I am still young and full of energy so I never fear failure or frustration, and it’s not time to settle down as I wanna struggle for、try、and have fun with more fancy or stimulated experience. I don’t know whether It's an error that when you discover you have some power and talent in doing sth or controlling sth you suddenly become more greedy as you desire for more. But as for the advantage part, you become more industrious and seemly you could better control yourself unsimilar to what you used to be.

 

I can’t be peaceful and in harmony unless I’ve already known where can my ability reach and really content with what I’m I doing.

     那个奇怪的我一直觉得是江湖骗子的3年前骚扰我到不行一个劲让我去学表演的让我害怕得都不敢一个人回家的"导演"在我都快忘记他时周么又打来了电话，讲他这三年怎么在上海，又怎么辗转到国外，讲他刚和XXX从汶川义演回来，还问我怎么样怎么样，私人的问题不私人的问题他都问还让我去看他北影学生排的话剧，我真是不知道这样的人都是怎么想的，没完没了。

    周么出去玩和琼美女一个房间，她真的太美了，好喜欢～我觉得女孩子还是白白的，乖巧的，低调的好。即使什么都懂了，也要内敛地。什么好像都懂一点，出去跟人贫，其实又不是真懂，跟大姐大似的，还老爱评价别人的女生，就会很让人很讨厌，我可不要变成这样的。

   最近玩得太多了，要收敛一下，我给自己每天定计划，在没有开始考试复习前，一定要做两件事，所有事都排在这两件事情后面！

Yestoday I went to Lama temple again to say my thanks and meanwhile to make an another wish. I was holding a complicatedly up-side-down sentiment when I suddently remembered the time about 4 months ago I made 3 wishes there. How happily I was then and all that was because of SB. But now time passed my first wish has completed and the second one seemed to be ruined.  

I readded his MSN the week before last week and spoke a word to him after 3 months. Again it was me to break the ice. I don't know. Except from heart beat, I think, it is more like the admiration I am holding towards the guy even though he must feel sorry to me because of his selfish, his cool and his evil curiosity! And even though I met someone more cliever and excellent than him. I still feel a little excited to see his MSN land on. 

I confessed that I'v really done something evil from April and I know its so baaad.... I should cut off the connection.

 

Chatting with an old friend on MSN, I got one truth even though other people have already revealed that before and I never confessed... It's about my personality.  I wanna be  low-pitched but oppositely I always want to be the focus subconsciously. I am a contradiction combination.

 

Today I went to the Xinjiang Restaurant again~~~ I like eye contact with the hot and sexy dancing girl.~~ Really nice body and act!!  

 

 

 

With some complicated nervous mood I stepped into this new place~ Hoho, And finanlly it proved that I'v made a correct choice. Actually nobody really got the meaning of my signment on MSN-The long war. Sb asked why I still hold the signment and it's time now to celebrate for the result. In fact the changing is not the end of my willing but only just a part of or to say, just a begining. I get my time back and finally I could do sth for myself now which is much more glamrous . BTW, I like all the things concerned to glamor & passion. I have a figure in my mind about myself in 30. I wanna be that kind of women. So come on~~

 

BTW, I met a person here and I must to say again. It's a small world ~~

 

Sometimes I don't content with such status

Stand by the cross road

I just wanna a wider space

I wanna fly

I wanna make bigger

This is destined an alterative year 

I just wanna run faster and grow stronger

Change it

Strange week, seems I've experienced lots of things and somebody really gave me a shock. I'm getting closer to a totally different world and a bunch of arrogant clever men. 

In Friday I'm a little lost of myself for my career and future, just suddently. How to choose?

1 Reading party organized.

2 Sth to do after the day, including the bathtub and travel~

3 Strive for my target in age 30~

这星期事还挺多

一 放弃一件大事，最后决定放弃的时候还有点小难过～不过没关系，今年去不了，明年去。今年不能去这，我们去别的地er～

二 这星期过于充实了，应接不暇的事情。每天走得很晚，但每天精神都很好，因为心里有动力～这样的生活要结束喽～

三 发现好多让我无比崇拜的人，应证了turbe的话“牛逼的人需要相处一段时间才会觉得他牛逼，装逼的人刚开始相处觉得很牛逼，时间长了才知道是装逼，SB的人一开始就让人觉得很SB；SB可以进化成装逼，装逼也可以退化成SB；装逼和SB的界限是模糊的，但牛逼永远是牛逼。”我见过ZB的，一开始觉得很NB，后来才发现是SB～ 但是原来身边不显不露的很多人，才是有很多真本事的人～ 真NB

四 憋坏了我了，之后要好好激情一下～

Finally I get this space which can avoid those ungrateful leave words. I deleted the last one because of the odd strangers. I can’t stop any one from seeing the blog as it's in a public place but I can deny the comments. Only MSN space has this function~
Everything's pending now though I’ve promised to leave in April, though Laura is anxious waiting for my reply, though I believe I've got no less than 60% possibility.. But only that I had already got the inform I couldn't be that confident. 

I got an answer a little disappointing last Friday but I know it's quite well-balanced indeed. I should perfect myself continually if I wanna get what I really appreciate and I know it may take not a short time. This is what I select so I have no reason to complain to any one or squawk to any of my good friends. Everybody has different attitude towards this thing. Maybe it's a fate I have to meet those ones in my life~ This world is toooo small and I've got some new disrepute stories of those ones in their foretime from a friend's friend, terriable....Sigh.. So.. do not do anything evil as this is really a small world and people always could know each other in series...
I adore Witchx's pretty sister very much, not for her appearance but for her mind, Clever, staunch and meanwhile so virtuous. She has an inimitablely gentler personality which makes every body likes her. She is running a successful company and of course she's the boss. The reason why she could get her repute, blessedness and status at a young age (Only a little past 30) is that she's brave enough to pursure what she wants when she's young;She could accept the challenge and be unperturbed to face to the lose gradually. No try no gain, no painful no content. So~ up and coming~

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